RIGE Alumni : Dreams~
i was dam excited and dam happy. cause the alumni performance was great cept i screwed up at two bars and i felt very metro, even waxed my hair..though i think there isnt much of a difference...i liked the way i looked >< and the feel of being in long-sleeve...anw the encore piece was a big mistake for me...i totally forgot all abt Wave..i nv even played the chords in the first place~!!!
nevertheless, i managed to stay thick-skinned enuf throughout the whole song, i was dyin of embarrassment, desperately searchin for a hole to stick my head into...
as usual, our jr.s are the pros and charmers..girls were practically dyin to meet kovan o.o just to cite an example...
anw, on my way home, a (not-so) random thought occurred to me...
i started to explore the relationship between humans...and the most fundamental way in which it is related thru, i.e conversations...
i realised that conversations need to be held by at least two parties...(duh right? else it wldnt b call relationship b/w humans)...
it just wont work out if one side is quiet all the time...initially it may...but as things to tok abt start to run out, the always speakin one will get tired...and den it happens...
people drift apart...
conversations are like glue, holding ppl together, bonding them together...a common topic is always welcomed in a grp of strangers, it helps to break the ice and let them get to know each other...
without it, ppl just seem to feel distant...and as this continues, with no one doing anything, u hv the common result of two gd frens in p.sch becomin totally awkward when tryin to speak to ea other...
it is like a vicious cycle...when u start to lose the common topic. the distance increase...u start to question abt ur existance and imptance...ur relevance to tt person...u start to lose confidence, finding urself meaningless and drifting away...finally...it reaches the pt where both of u hv really drifted apart
personally, this is wad i feel...mayb its just cause i live in my shell....i find it really hard to connect back with the ppl u had lost in touch with..it is just very awkward...
anw, take this time to ask urself, has this ever happened to you? i.e the lack of conversations..result in losing contact...totally awkward positions..not knowing wad to say, etc....basically just a crappy feeling...
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and this brings me to another point...how do ppl always seem to hv so much to tok abt with others but not with u (ok...me)?
i identified tt its my introvert self at action..cant b helped....its not sth tt cld b changed easily...
ok...im tired after all these processing of random thoughts and questioning abt existance and wad nots...and all the sociology..
so..my post..after so long....
jem toked kok @ 8/26/2006 12:58:00 am
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