edit* One day I'll find it
hmm, been listening to this 张学友 song called 毛衣... really liked the starting intro music.. it has this very fantasy feeling to it.. everytime i listen to it, feels as really carefree and light, as though flying tru the clear blue sky, wind tru ur hair.. juz like the scene out of the 2nd Rave opening , haru grabs ellie's hand and flew down frm the sky, wif plue parachuting down wif griffin haha (00:40-00:52?)been watching tv mobile here and then on the bus, occasionally comes the granando esparda advertisement.. gawd, the theme song is just soooo nice!!! coupled with the fantastic CG environment... everytime i watch it, sends tingles up and down my body. full of adventure, thrill, and yet with tranquility and serenity, its all so surreal..
listening to Ragnarok Online BGM also brings about much memories and emotions for me, really.. haha. perhaps not like the playing the game itself literally, but more of, the story and the make up of the games.
it is sort of like.. an escape for me, listening to these sometimes serene, sometimes vibrant and lively (never emo/angsty) music. it is the one time i can dwell on somewhere, to me, perfect, a paradise. sometimes i just wonder, why are we here in this world, following endless cycles, routine boring tasks and participating in counless rat races... whats the true essence of life? to study study study, work work work, and await death? i cant help but wish, why cant we break free frm all these, all these rules, regulations, boundries, cycles and the vast concrete jungles? why cant life be of adventure, discovery, companionship, where one can live at his/her own pace, explore at his/her own will, meet new people and make new friends, with genuine good will. no stress no pressure, with breatiful mother nature to boot, you know, clear blue skies with puffy white clouds, sparkling streams, vast blue oceans, butterflies flying around beautiful flowers.. oni things i get here in real life are perhaps the occasional beatle that flies into my room and buzz around the light bulb, which i will promptly slash with my katana.. challanges could come with perhaps the occasional evil mushroom or bubble that bounces along which u can chop... lol kk jkjk
i guess thats where the music and the books and comics come into place.. a temporary medium for a quick getaway, to destress and to refresh oneself.. well at least for me. i think many people read say, a manga, just to follow the story, to see whats happening next, or to catch the cool fighting scenes, or occasionally the comedy. not many i should say, immerse themself into a differnt dimension/world when reading or listening to these fiction, fantasy stuff.
simply put, sometimes i wished one could be a carefree explorer, adventurer, together with my companions, brave uncharted territories, occasionally stopping on a hill to enjoy the gentle breeze and the grand overlooking beaty of the landscape... the closest thing i guess, is like.. newzealand. went there in P5 or something, forgot.. but can remember, its really a very surreal experience, everywher u go, its rid of all thoes tall concrete sky scrapers, but maybe the perhaps wooden cottage and countless of hills, streams, greenery. but still, that has to be bought frm a tour agency with money you earned hard frm slogging away for the past 30+ years of ur life. all for what? a few days of peace, before back to the bustling, noisy, yet monotonous lifestyle?
oh well, why dwell on all these fictional unrealistic stuff right? i prolly should be mugging, and not here typing some stuff at 330am... fictional? i hope not.. remembering the art week or smth not long ago in rj, when there was a notice board or something, where one could like "post a secret" where u write some secret stuff and put in some box, then pple will post them up on the board for others to see... i wrote a few stuff which was never seen on the board.. i guess the pple in charge were either freaked out or like "uh.. right... wheres the bin?" lol i remember i wrote something like " i killed my own brother when i was 14. it was a moment of folly, which i will live with regret for the rest of my life. god have mercy on my soul" lol... yar so anyway.. i read one of the nicely colored and designed post cards posted on the board.. one read "i believe in real magic. There is much more to life than reality... one day i'll find it". i was really struck by the message. its so totally what i felt and still feel(willy said i just have a much too vivid imagination, and should get back down to earth). its a wish, a hope, no matter how stupid or silly it is . to be able to break free from this.. this illogical and unfufilling world.. i was really touched by the message that even til now, i can remember every single word of it! haha... ah well... sorry im not much of a practical person...
perhaps more of a romanticist, 浪漫主义者.
ah thats all for now. time to snap back to reality... peace (not applicable for this reality)
/\/egima Fr34K* toked kok @ 10/05/2007 12:40:00 am
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