thoughts of the immediate, the distant, and the non-existent future
i've been giving a lot of thoughts about the future these few days, since im block leave anyway...well, block leave wasnt exactly spent idling...so far...cause the first two days were spent helping my father with his work....
anyway, i believe a lot of people have been thinking about their own future, what they want and what they can do. Making choices, thinking over them, and perhaps changing their decision. It is after all the period in which we start to come of age to face the real world, the period in which we have to decide what we want to do with our future.
some people believe that university courses have little to no regards with what you will eventually end up working as, whilst they are also people who tend to believe the opposite. for me, im one who is stuck in the middle of both, believing in a little of both. so ultimately, im in a dilemma as to what course shld i take for uni? i fear the unknown, i fear the future.
i keep thinking of the pros and cons, weighing the differences...thinking about what i will get to experience...but at the same time, i think about what i will not experience...i fear that my choice might not b a wise choice..though i hv yet to make any choices...so as i ponder about the future and its uncertainties, i came to realise how much i missed school....how much i missed the so called innocence of youth.
admittedly, i wasnt exactly enjoying every single bit of my sch life since probably the day i entered RI and then moved on to RJ. sch life seemed to pale in comparison when u watch japanese dramas and what nots about their sch life. it seems so much more..happening than what i hv went thru..nevertheless...the monotony and frustrations i endured were so much more better than that of the army..really......i cant wait to ORD. just for the record, it isnt really as tough as many would like to think...but this yearning for THE day to come just grabs almost every NSFs...it is onli a matter of time before they succumb to this wish.
on another note...i finally bought my acoustic gutiar capo..perhaps money well spent, perhaps overspent as well cause i chose for sth better..when the cheaper one would suffice...my classical guitar capo is like sitting ard now, without any use..together with the classical gutiar strap...both are good stuffs which has become a bit obsolete....also, i finally found that elusive video series which i hv spent countless time questing for, i.e. Band of Brothers. and guess what, i had to question how much i really want it. cause when i finally found it, it was the collector's edition i think ( in a metal case with a lot of additional stuff cds like docu and making of). instead of immediately making the purchase, i just stop and stared at the price tag. it is a whooping $140....jokes...bleh....
jem toked kok @ 5/23/2008 06:40:00 pm
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