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The Journey

hah so i finally got down to writing this post about the grad day thingy.. which happened 2 days ago le..

let me first talk about proceedings and stuff, before going on to my reflections ba.. yup yup..

hmm so went to sch awaiting assembly cause cr sent sms say got flag raising.. den they suddenly canceled it that morning la.. wth waste my time lol.. so stone arnd before going up to class... oh yaaaa... also brought in like 2 big plastic bags full of snax that the gals asked me to bring home first the nite before lol... so diu lian lor, walk arnd school wif so many chips and bizkits and stuff lol... in the end i oni chiong the wang wang biscuits wif the guys at the back.. leave the ewwwie chips wif the gals, who seems to like chips a lot... chips aint the thing for me la haha..

Mr Chong made this slideshow and rewrote the lyrics to the song "collide" by Howie Day it was really quite funny and lame at the same time haha, but thats mr chongs trademark ba! then they also gave this lame lame take 5 stamp -.- i think its damn suck lor really... u noe, HCI gave EVERYONE a lovely teddy bear? and they ALLL went on stage 1 by one to shakehands/hug their CT rep as they got presented the teddy.. thats what i call 有心 lor.. i think this stamp thing will get lost some time later lol...

stoned arnd in class, took pictures wif various pple... they request de, not me. sorry i v popular )= lol... lazy to take foto la.. and my phone cam sux... so dun bother... after that went to hall for the ceremony.. quite sad, the class pretty much got split up cause no space below.. so went on top wif a few of the china gals whom sat elese where, and wif marcus tong and jem. watched the slideshow presentations, which the AV pple screwed up multiple times lol.. it was really quite funny at 1 point in time, when they show CAPTAIN chun zi and played some daunting music, which resulted in an immediate software crash LOL.. really damn skru up haha.. but that slide show ok ok la.. never see our class in it sian... oni the second slide show when the diff teachers were interviewed... Ms tang and the Chem department's presentation was really really very touching and well done =) really very nostalgic sia the pooh bears haha... Mr Chong's presentation didnt fail to make make everyone luff as usual haha.. but sir, why so shy dun show face sia? both ms tang and mr chong's presentation had our class' fotos.. ms tang's one had really old old fotos! like the ones wif bernie and rachel still there! where we drew something about each of us and showed to the cam haha..

after that pretty much slept tru much of the prize presentation parts oni to wake up a few times to reply mumu's smses lol. oh quite a loss that mr hodge is leaving.. but oh well, MOE big ma. haha and by the time he leaves, we wld already have left too..

after that proceeded to canteen supposedly to discuss chalet stuff... but ended up doing nothing. den proceeded to watch lust,caution with marcus and the animal farm pple.... LUST,CAUTION IS THE BEST SHOW ON EARTH, 5 STARS ALL GO WATCH PLS

THIS IS NOT SARCASTIC


lol really la.. lol.. kk mercy... after that ate ben and jerry's, tong treat. cause he said he wld long long time ago. ok gals, pls dun say i evil or smth >.> its like ... something that u shld complete ma.. like jiang dao zhuo dao, i juz help him oni haha kkk skip skip

oh yea wanqing wrote a letter to everyone. that was really very sweet of her =)




hmm i read a few other pple's blogs.. and unlike most of them, i honestly did not feel a huge surge of emotions on this "end of school" day. Perhaps its because we STILL DO have school and remedials and such, and there is still grad night... perhaps not... perhaps its because i dun have to leave Singapore to go elsewhere, and never to see the rest perhaps ever again... then again, perhaps not. why do i not feel such a strong emotional attachment as the few of them, i still do not really know. but i shall seek to find out and reflect upon.

not ALL are left in tears and emotions on that day. some people share the same feelings as me, like ongnardo haha... im guessing a number of the guys are also the same... maybe cause guys are less emotional than girls? but so i've heard from many pple that im a very sensitive guy haha.. is that so? oh well....

i guess the main reason is cause there really isnt much bonding ba... unlike that of what all of us experienced in 01. Not to say we as classmates didn't hang out or have fun. IN FACT, JC life has really been very very fun.. but .. its sort of like.. an empty kinda fun.. u noe.. like fun wif no real kinda meaning and or purpose.. juz pure fun.. like fun while playing cards or a computer game or basketball... they weren't REALLY experiecnces and memories forged.. not as deeply tho. its like, fun derived from genuinely wanting to have fun. and not the thrill and joy derived from overcoming an obstacle together, or completing a trying journey together. things that 01 have taught me.

note that im not saying i dun think much of u all or dun really think we are close friends.. we are. it is just i dun really feel very very sad because we dun really have much precious memories and experiences that we hold on to together. Things that we will really really miss and feel weird all over when we stop doing them as we split. see we dun really do much things together anyways.

i dun speak for all, cause i know there are groups of people out there who really have their lives changed in JC. and who really have very strong memories and friendships forged. and i really envy and admire these people. how i wish JC life had been much more fruitful than just meeting nice friends and having fun. i really wished i had forged really strong friendships wif many of u, but i guess i didnt try hard enough, or maybe it didnt mattered how much i tried anyway.... haha....


The biggest void of my JC life is probably the few classmates whom i dun even know much more of... perhaps i was shy, or there was some s2pid unfounded barrier... but there are so many of you that i really didn't have the courage or chance to know well enough... maybe JC life is just too short? nah.. i think thats an excuse.. haiz. there are also a few whom i used to talk easily to.. but somehow somewhat, things slowly fell apart and we rarely talked again... in the end.. i think i really know less than half the class...

Wished i really had the chance to have known you all better, and had more exchanges. wished we cld have been much more than aquintences and classmates :




Well, theres still class chalet left... hope we can try to make up for lost time then haha


To sum it all up, this JC life with all of u has been great and pleasant. i have made a few closer friends out of the many, but it could have been better. we could all really have gel-ed together much more and function and operate as a whole. we could ALL have had beautiful memories of 07s06A together, and not juz be thinking at the end of the day "oh which class was i from... some s06 class la, forgot liao... juz go there for lessons oni"

It is all individual effort for making a bonded class, and i'm not going to fault anyone except myself, because i have no right to. Perhaps i didnt try hard enough, perhaps trying hard didnt mattered, perhaps there was too little time... perhaps there wernt much avenues and opportunities for bonding. Perhaps many things, but given a chance, i would really wish i could turn back time and make sure i know everyone in the class well, and help make our whole class gel as one. but granted that, it is difficult to have a totally united bunch of people in one class.. afterall, everyone is different and from all walks of life. maybe thats why i've never really had many wonderful memories of my different classes as a whole, more of memories of different groups of people in the class.


Collectively it may be hard to find something common to hold on to, But of course at the end of the day, i will miss and rememver each and everyone of u =) because The journey is of no less importance and significance as the Destination.


To all thoes out there who are like very affected and sad, "don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened." -Theodor Seuss Geisel


cheers everyone, mug hard for A's

/\/egima Fr34K* toked kok @ 10/14/2007 10:15:00 pm