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Wednesday 31 October 2007

when there's nothing left to burn,

you've got to set yourself on fire....

Monday 29 October 2007

Its Time

its time

goodluck yall

we'll all be needing it

Sunday 21 October 2007

A Sad Passing

My dog passed away in the wee hours of this morning.

His name was Pepsi because of his black fur i guess. Cause he's actually my brother's girlfriend's doggie. But she didnt take good care of pepsi, so my brother brought pepsi back to our home to care for it.

On wednes day night, pepsi puked once, and didnt eat any dinner. Being a puppy, he was usually very very active and playful, but on that night he seemed very moody... My brother and mum felt something were worried, so they broght him to the vet. The vet examined Pepsi and said he seemed fine, but to be sure, they had to take a blood test.. so they took the blood test, which cost $126.. and he said the results seemed normal. So my brother thought maybe what pepsi had was very mild, or he was just tired from too much playing...

Thursday, Pepsi puked a few more times.. even more lethargic. No appetitte as usual.

Early friday morning around 9a.m my brother brought Pepsi to another vet... when he arrived, the doctor took Pepsi's temperature. He stared at my brother and said "This is the temperature of a dying dog. What took you so long?" Everyone was stunned. The dog was brought into intensive care and stayed in the animal clinic.

My brother visited him the next day. I asked how was progress.. My brother said to me "i went in, he recognised me and wagged his tail fraily. He tried to stand up, but couldn't..." i could see the sadness and dampness in his eyes.

On that very saturday/sunday late night/morning, Pepsi passed away from a Parvovirus attack.

He was only 8 months old.

It was found out later that Pepsi was not vaccinated by the previous owner when he was a newborn, that was why he got hit by the virus so hard.

Though Pepsi has only lived in my home for 2 months.. Everyone in the family were very attached to it.. My mum called up the previous vet and gave him a tongue lashing.

I guess my brother is the most attached to him. Afterall he saw the doggie grow up frm as small as a pencil case to an arm's length. Never have i seen my brother this sad... At the dinner table today, while we were having our dinner, there was a slight rustle coming frm the door, my brother immediately spun around and looked in the direction of the door... hoping that Pepsi came back.. See, whenever we were having our dinner, he would prance around the door (theres a small fence blocking the entrance) hoping to get our attention so we would throw him some food. Alas, it was just s fallen leaf. I could see my brother's disheartened expression as he looked back at me.

while doing some editing, i just realised that this is the 300th post... i remember i wanted to do like a fun post for spartaaa.. but.. sadly, i guess this isnt a time for such a post.

Goodbye my dear cute little Pepsi. Your enthusiasm and curiousity will always be remembered affectionately. i hope you are better up there now

Emo

quote from
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emo

"Emo is also sometimes associated with a certain fashion. Emo clothing is characterized by tight jeans on males and females alike, long fringe (bangs) brushed to one side of the face or over one or both eyes, dyed black, straightened hair, tight t-shirts which often bear the names of rock bands (or other designed shirts), studded belts, belt buckles, canvas sneakers or skate shoes or other black shoes (often old and beaten up) and thick, black horn-rimmed glasses.[16][17][18] Emo fashion has changed with time; early trends included straightend unparted hair, tightly fitting sweaters, button-down shirts, and work jackets (often called gas station jackets).[citation needed] This fashion has at times been characterized as a fad.[19]"

karthik..yeah...
vd and chin nam...tight t-shirts? skinny jeans? neh...

@VD: being EMO

Well, so i read Huan Yong, a.k.a VD's blog. he was talking bout how to look emo, and he supposedly made himself emo-kid! i saw him, but din realise that was his intent.. i tot he was drenched by the rain lol...

vd you NOOB!

want to noe emo, shld ask karthik la, i think he zai in emo-kid make up haha

i think i also v pro at being emo kid! haha

VD here are some pics u can learn frm =P

I dun think karthik used any hair cream or gel or hair fixing products.. not sure tho
mine is au naturale

oh yea, been listening to this band Home Made 家族, or Home Made Kazoku. its the japanese hip hop band which is famous for its "arigatou" song for the Bleach anime(its emb on the blog now, streaming frm imeem) .. THEY ROCK! you can you tube their songs. look out for aikotoba, nagareboshi shooting star, joyride, shonen heart =)

Monday 15 October 2007

of dinners and of music

a long due post, cause it happened ages ago...i went to a wedding dinner which was held at swissotel....and i must share my experience, since we are goin to hv our grad night there (together with other jcs holding it there as well)...of course the dishes may differ but the quality and standard should somewhat remain top-notch

the following were the dishes i got to enjoy that night...
Rainbow Roast Duck with Fresh Fruits Salad
Braised Shark's Fin Soup with Conpoy and Fish Maw
Sauteed Scallops with Baby Asparagus, Macadamia Nuts and Pine Nuts
Deep-fried Deboned Chicken stuffed with Minced Prawns served with Mayonnaise
Braised Baby Abalone with Tianjin Cabbage in XO Oyster Sauce
Steamed Live Dark Grouper in Supreme Soy
Stir-fried Bailing Mushroom with Capsicum and Waterchestnuts served in Yam Ring
Stewed Ee-Fu Noodles with Shredded Abalone and Beansprouts
Chilled Sago Cream with Mango and Peach (this was like the ultimate killer dish)

all in all, they are just super nice ...

of course, since it is a wedding dinner, there is obviously music. and the music deserved special mention cause they were none other then classic love songs which really set the romantic mood. songs such as nothing is gonna change my love for you and stuffs...ask eugene for a rundown, he probably can give u one whole list....anyway...it was just super nice and soothing to b listening to those songs which i had never heard in so long....

classic love songs FTW!

Sunday 14 October 2007

The Journey

hah so i finally got down to writing this post about the grad day thingy.. which happened 2 days ago le..

let me first talk about proceedings and stuff, before going on to my reflections ba.. yup yup..

hmm so went to sch awaiting assembly cause cr sent sms say got flag raising.. den they suddenly canceled it that morning la.. wth waste my time lol.. so stone arnd before going up to class... oh yaaaa... also brought in like 2 big plastic bags full of snax that the gals asked me to bring home first the nite before lol... so diu lian lor, walk arnd school wif so many chips and bizkits and stuff lol... in the end i oni chiong the wang wang biscuits wif the guys at the back.. leave the ewwwie chips wif the gals, who seems to like chips a lot... chips aint the thing for me la haha..

Mr Chong made this slideshow and rewrote the lyrics to the song "collide" by Howie Day it was really quite funny and lame at the same time haha, but thats mr chongs trademark ba! then they also gave this lame lame take 5 stamp -.- i think its damn suck lor really... u noe, HCI gave EVERYONE a lovely teddy bear? and they ALLL went on stage 1 by one to shakehands/hug their CT rep as they got presented the teddy.. thats what i call 有心 lor.. i think this stamp thing will get lost some time later lol...

stoned arnd in class, took pictures wif various pple... they request de, not me. sorry i v popular )= lol... lazy to take foto la.. and my phone cam sux... so dun bother... after that went to hall for the ceremony.. quite sad, the class pretty much got split up cause no space below.. so went on top wif a few of the china gals whom sat elese where, and wif marcus tong and jem. watched the slideshow presentations, which the AV pple screwed up multiple times lol.. it was really quite funny at 1 point in time, when they show CAPTAIN chun zi and played some daunting music, which resulted in an immediate software crash LOL.. really damn skru up haha.. but that slide show ok ok la.. never see our class in it sian... oni the second slide show when the diff teachers were interviewed... Ms tang and the Chem department's presentation was really really very touching and well done =) really very nostalgic sia the pooh bears haha... Mr Chong's presentation didnt fail to make make everyone luff as usual haha.. but sir, why so shy dun show face sia? both ms tang and mr chong's presentation had our class' fotos.. ms tang's one had really old old fotos! like the ones wif bernie and rachel still there! where we drew something about each of us and showed to the cam haha..

after that pretty much slept tru much of the prize presentation parts oni to wake up a few times to reply mumu's smses lol. oh quite a loss that mr hodge is leaving.. but oh well, MOE big ma. haha and by the time he leaves, we wld already have left too..

after that proceeded to canteen supposedly to discuss chalet stuff... but ended up doing nothing. den proceeded to watch lust,caution with marcus and the animal farm pple.... LUST,CAUTION IS THE BEST SHOW ON EARTH, 5 STARS ALL GO WATCH PLS

THIS IS NOT SARCASTIC

lol really la.. lol.. kk mercy... after that ate ben and jerry's, tong treat. cause he said he wld long long time ago. ok gals, pls dun say i evil or smth >.> its like ... something that u shld complete ma.. like jiang dao zhuo dao, i juz help him oni haha kkk skip skip

oh yea wanqing wrote a letter to everyone. that was really very sweet of her =)

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hmm i read a few other pple's blogs.. and unlike most of them, i honestly did not feel a huge surge of emotions on this "end of school" day. Perhaps its because we STILL DO have school and remedials and such, and there is still grad night... perhaps not... perhaps its because i dun have to leave Singapore to go elsewhere, and never to see the rest perhaps ever again... then again, perhaps not. why do i not feel such a strong emotional attachment as the few of them, i still do not really know. but i shall seek to find out and reflect upon.

not ALL are left in tears and emotions on that day. some people share the same feelings as me, like ongnardo haha... im guessing a number of the guys are also the same... maybe cause guys are less emotional than girls? but so i've heard from many pple that im a very sensitive guy haha.. is that so? oh well....

i guess the main reason is cause there really isnt much bonding ba... unlike that of what all of us experienced in 01. Not to say we as classmates didn't hang out or have fun. IN FACT, JC life has really been very very fun.. but .. its sort of like.. an empty kinda fun.. u noe.. like fun wif no real kinda meaning and or purpose.. juz pure fun.. like fun while playing cards or a computer game or basketball... they weren't REALLY experiecnces and memories forged.. not as deeply tho. its like, fun derived from genuinely wanting to have fun. and not the thrill and joy derived from overcoming an obstacle together, or completing a trying journey together. things that 01 have taught me.

note that im not saying i dun think much of u all or dun really think we are close friends.. we are. it is just i dun really feel very very sad because we dun really have much precious memories and experiences that we hold on to together. Things that we will really really miss and feel weird all over when we stop doing them as we split. see we dun really do much things together anyways.

i dun speak for all, cause i know there are groups of people out there who really have their lives changed in JC. and who really have very strong memories and friendships forged. and i really envy and admire these people. how i wish JC life had been much more fruitful than just meeting nice friends and having fun. i really wished i had forged really strong friendships wif many of u, but i guess i didnt try hard enough, or maybe it didnt mattered how much i tried anyway.... haha....

The biggest void of my JC life is probably the few classmates whom i dun even know much more of... perhaps i was shy, or there was some s2pid unfounded barrier... but there are so many of you that i really didn't have the courage or chance to know well enough... maybe JC life is just too short? nah.. i think thats an excuse.. haiz. there are also a few whom i used to talk easily to.. but somehow somewhat, things slowly fell apart and we rarely talked again... in the end.. i think i really know less than half the class...

Wished i really had the chance to have known you all better, and had more exchanges. wished we cld have been much more than aquintences and classmates :

Alisa, Angie, Elaine, Gaoyuan, Iwan, Meng Fei, Meng Ying, Parker, Tianhui, Yuhua"

Well, theres still class chalet left... hope we can try to make up for lost time then haha

To sum it all up, this JC life with all of u has been great and pleasant. i have made a few closer friends out of the many, but it could have been better. we could all really have gel-ed together much more and function and operate as a whole. we could ALL have had beautiful memories of 07s06A together, and not juz be thinking at the end of the day "oh which class was i from... some s06 class la, forgot liao... juz go there for lessons oni"

It is all individual effort for making a bonded class, and i'm not going to fault anyone except myself, because i have no right to. Perhaps i didnt try hard enough, perhaps trying hard didnt mattered, perhaps there was too little time... perhaps there wernt much avenues and opportunities for bonding. Perhaps many things, but given a chance, i would really wish i could turn back time and make sure i know everyone in the class well, and help make our whole class gel as one. but granted that, it is difficult to have a totally united bunch of people in one class.. afterall, everyone is different and from all walks of life. maybe thats why i've never really had many wonderful memories of my different classes as a whole, more of memories of different groups of people in the class.

Collectively it may be hard to find something common to hold on to, But of course at the end of the day, i will miss and rememver each and everyone of u =) because The journey is of no less importance and significance as the Destination.

To all thoes out there who are like very affected and sad, "don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened." -Theodor Seuss Geisel

cheers everyone, mug hard for A's

Friday 5 October 2007

edit* One day I'll find it

hmm, been listening to this 张学友 song called 毛衣... really liked the starting intro music.. it has this very fantasy feeling to it.. everytime i listen to it, feels as really carefree and light, as though flying tru the clear blue sky, wind tru ur hair.. juz like the scene out of the 2nd Rave opening , haru grabs ellie's hand and flew down frm the sky, wif plue parachuting down wif griffin haha (00:40-00:52?)

been watching tv mobile here and then on the bus, occasionally comes the granando esparda advertisement.. gawd, the theme song is just soooo nice!!! coupled with the fantastic CG environment... everytime i watch it, sends tingles up and down my body. full of adventure, thrill, and yet with tranquility and serenity, its all so surreal..
listening to Ragnarok Online BGM also brings about much memories and emotions for me, really.. haha. perhaps not like the playing the game itself literally, but more of, the story and the make up of the games.

it is sort of like.. an escape for me, listening to these sometimes serene, sometimes vibrant and lively (never emo/angsty) music. it is the one time i can dwell on somewhere, to me, perfect, a paradise. sometimes i just wonder, why are we here in this world, following endless cycles, routine boring tasks and participating in counless rat races... whats the true essence of life? to study study study, work work work, and await death? i cant help but wish, why cant we break free frm all these, all these rules, regulations, boundries, cycles and the vast concrete jungles? why cant life be of adventure, discovery, companionship, where one can live at his/her own pace, explore at his/her own will, meet new people and make new friends, with genuine good will. no stress no pressure, with breatiful mother nature to boot, you know, clear blue skies with puffy white clouds, sparkling streams, vast blue oceans, butterflies flying around beautiful flowers.. oni things i get here in real life are perhaps the occasional beatle that flies into my room and buzz around the light bulb, which i will promptly slash with my katana.. challanges could come with perhaps the occasional evil mushroom or bubble that bounces along which u can chop... lol kk jkjk

i guess thats where the music and the books and comics come into place.. a temporary medium for a quick getaway, to destress and to refresh oneself.. well at least for me. i think many people read say, a manga, just to follow the story, to see whats happening next, or to catch the cool fighting scenes, or occasionally the comedy. not many i should say, immerse themself into a differnt dimension/world when reading or listening to these fiction, fantasy stuff.
simply put, sometimes i wished one could be a carefree explorer, adventurer, together with my companions, brave uncharted territories, occasionally stopping on a hill to enjoy the gentle breeze and the grand overlooking beaty of the landscape... the closest thing i guess, is like.. newzealand. went there in P5 or something, forgot.. but can remember, its really a very surreal experience, everywher u go, its rid of all thoes tall concrete sky scrapers, but maybe the perhaps wooden cottage and countless of hills, streams, greenery. but still, that has to be bought frm a tour agency with money you earned hard frm slogging away for the past 30+ years of ur life. all for what? a few days of peace, before back to the bustling, noisy, yet monotonous lifestyle?

oh well, why dwell on all these fictional unrealistic stuff right? i prolly should be mugging, and not here typing some stuff at 330am... fictional? i hope not.. remembering the art week or smth not long ago in rj, when there was a notice board or something, where one could like "post a secret" where u write some secret stuff and put in some box, then pple will post them up on the board for others to see... i wrote a few stuff which was never seen on the board.. i guess the pple in charge were either freaked out or like "uh.. right... wheres the bin?" lol i remember i wrote something like " i killed my own brother when i was 14. it was a moment of folly, which i will live with regret for the rest of my life. god have mercy on my soul" lol... yar so anyway.. i read one of the nicely colored and designed post cards posted on the board.. one read "i believe in real magic. There is much more to life than reality... one day i'll find it". i was really struck by the message. its so totally what i felt and still feel(willy said i just have a much too vivid imagination, and should get back down to earth). its a wish, a hope, no matter how stupid or silly it is . to be able to break free from this.. this illogical and unfufilling world.. i was really touched by the message that even til now, i can remember every single word of it! haha... ah well... sorry im not much of a practical person...

perhaps more of a romanticist, 浪漫主义者.

ah thats all for now. time to snap back to reality... peace (not applicable for this reality)

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